Week 24 My Calling

John 1:1-10 New King James Version (NKJV)

The Eternal Word

1 In the beginning was the Word, and the Word was with God, and the Word was God. He was in the beginning with God. All things were made through Him, and without Him nothing was made that was made. In Him was life, and the life was the light of men. And the light shines in the darkness, and the darkness did not comprehend[a] it. There was a man sent from God, whose name was John. This man came for a witness, to bear witness of the Light, that all through him might believe. He was not that Light, but was sent to bear witness of that Light. That was the true Light which gives light to every man coming into the world.[b10 He was in the world, and the world was made through Him, and the world did not know Him.

The world still does not know Him and therefore, before the commencement, I feel compelled to talk about HIM.

The Word says that He, Being GoD, did not insist on being God but chose to became in the form of man.

Why would God, being the Creator, should become man, if all spirit is good?

Why would God have to be born of man, if man could redeem him/herself?

John 10:30,33,38 I and my Father are ONE. 

John 8:58,59 Jesus said to them, Truly, truly, I say to you, Before Abraham was, I AM.

IF, and if, the Word, Bible, whatever you call it, were to be true, then there were an exclusionary Truth element attached to it. If man/woman were able to build themselves /transform themselves via their own endeavors, why would God  as a Man, Jesus, have to die for us? This would be the most ridiculous story ever…..and there are a few out there.

Why would it not suffice that a blameless animal would die for us? Likewise, could not a human die for us? why would this not be enough? What is the Big Separation?

There is sin. Look at the world, corrupted and unjust. There is hatred. Even with all the good, we cannot deny the bad and the ugly. Our seed became corrupted by disobedience and death followed, even though it took Adam a long time to die physically. God in His LOVE, could  not allow that evil would live forever. In the end, as planned before the beginning of the world, as God IS outside of time, a perfect Lamb had to be born into this world to save people for eternity; God Himself.  God, Love gave man a free will, so to lift him/her over existing like a puppet. Love came down and lived here; give himself to be slaughtered on our behalf to set us free and Live.

Me matter, each one of us; if we do not live up to our calling, we deprive “the universe” our fellow earth citizens of His Love manifested through us./me.


I have been confirmed, by going through this genius course to be called to preach this gospel. I am called and I shall obey.

I always keep my promised and give Glory to The One who Loves Me.






My Future Raphaela Person

The DC Metro is known for its “meteorological sensitivity;” meaning both, politically and specifically weather related phenomena; did I say weather-related? Comparable to psycho-somatic symptomatics, weather systems have their own dynamics here. If a few flurries are expected, schools will be closed that day; snow-mowers are at every intersection and block traffic successfully; just like snow would, if it were to materialize. Now, whenever snow would stay  on the ground, life in the nation’s capital and the surrounding areas in Maryland and Virginia would come to a total halt. Even “mission essential” professionals would not “sighted.” The only appearance of human life would be in form of snow moving entities. I learned a valuable lesson with this week’s “snowmaggedon;” I thought I had, as mandated, packed a well-equipped duffel bag for at least two nights, should we be “locked in.” Once in the hotel room, I learned what it meant to take care of your future self. Other than one halfway decent gym outfit, there were no necessities, such as deodorant; teeth maintenance utensils; underwear, nor fluffy bed shoes. I almost felt traumatized by “the person” who let me down; who was trusted to be “mission ready for anything at any time.”

Emerson • 3 major sections – Importance of self-reliance – Self-reliance and the individual – Self-reliance and society • Measure by role performance? – Personal experience and observation • BE THE OBSERVER! – Individualism or a copy of a copy of a copy?”

At this point I was a sorry copy of a cartoon figure, not the person I intend to become. I re-assessed myself in light of the many life-giving methodologies received in the Master Key and decided, from now on, to practice following Mental Diet, for the time being, without an end date: What would my Future Self do next? Better yet. What would Me, who is my Future Self, do next?

I did not only let me down but also others who knocked at my door in high expectations that I had extra of everything. I ended up sharing chocolate, which clearly must have been my priority, as I had plenty. Likewise, I ended up applying “camping survival skills” by brushing my teeth with paper. Work ended up being rewarding, as my mental attitude was comical. The “Old Book” generously left in the hotel room by the Gideons, reminded me:

Oh, how I love your law!
I meditate on it all day long.
98 Your commands are always with me
and make me wiser than my enemies.
99 I have more insight than all my teachers,
for I meditate on your statutes.
100 I have more understanding than the elders,
for I obey your precepts.
101 I have kept my feet from every evil path
so that I might obey your word.
102 I have not departed from your laws,
for you yourself have taught me. Ps 119

Ready for the next mission. I always keep my promises!

Week 23 The Silence of the Lamb


Recently, as propelled by the MKMMA, I have agreed to participate ….or jumped to the opportunity which presented itself to a few hours and silence and flight training. Silence actually was easy, too easy, which is not be confused with myself being a Platonic personality but rather experienced in a few disciplines; the latter having grown up without electronics, even TV, and climbing mountains in the Alps. We would have to shut up in order to be able to breath while climbing up endless inclines and walls. As a reward, our father would tell us one of his fascinating stories that made us forget that our feet were hurting. “Shutting my trap” (military speak) for 36 hours was minimal compared to having been locked into a dirty apartment comparable structure in Kampala, Uganda, when the “current administration” took over (which has not vacated their seat thence..) —-over thousands of dead bodies—-. I remember flying back to Europe, not talking and in no mood talking even though not having talked for a few weeks. Then and now and always that I can recall, I have been a deep thinker about the key questions to move us humans, “why are we here and is there someone out there who cares?” Having faced death several times in my life, I know. The way I know is best explained in a parable: A woman (could be a man too, but I am female, therefore a woman) fell into a hole and found herself stuck in mud without capability to “step” her way out of the dilemma. A Buddhist walked by and the woman screamed, “HELP!!!” The Buddhist stopped and told the woman to meditate and find her inner peace. The woman, now even more frantic, when she could not get out nor receive help, with the mud pulling her lower, screamed even louder and more desperate, “HELP HELP HELP I AM DYING.” A philosopher walked by and told her in a stern voice to use her “thinking apparatus to gain perspective and apply a combination of Stoic and Epikurean thought to think herself out of her misfortune. Next a physician offered her a few gamma rays and pills, which were absorbed by the ever moving wet mud. The woman now convicted that she was not worth more than mud and ready to die, said, rather solemnly, “God if you are real and there, would you please give me your peace and, if possible, rescue me?”  A carpenter, looking like he was out of a Jesus movie,  walked by, jumped into the mudhole and pushed her up and out. The woman looked for her rescuer and found him nowhere but inside of her, she had PEACE, she knew that she was precious and worth dying and living for.

In one of the situations i encountered, when I was dying, i cried to the same carpenter, calling him, Joshua, and i found myself, withing hours, safe and well. God is the foxhole and in the ICU; in the homeless shelter and in the outhouse. He is still in the rescuing business as He has paid a BLOOD SUM for all of us. He had set His Love on us and will not let us go as long as we know Who He Is. Silence has re-connected me with events from the past that have made me who I am and my eyes are tearing when thinking of those in the fox holes right now. Silence has propelled me to re-commit to my DPM, not for the exercise’s sake but for the sake of those who depend on it. There are troops to be connected to a 24/7 prayer line and African women to be given opportunities to provide for their families, after the Joseph Koni’s and the Boko Haram and the El Shabbab have attempted to ransack their homes. All these lambs have need of a Savior, not only for eternity but also here, NOW. “I know that to court idleness is to steal food, clothing and warmth form those I love.” Today i encounter my destiny, and my destiny is to become the greatest saleswoman in the world.

“The highest form of love is to be the protector of another person’s solitude.” Rainer Maria Rilke






Week 21 and resisting change

Moral Reconation Therapy, MRT, personality theory postulates than an individual’s personality resists change. Defense mechanisms serve the purpose of maintaining the personality as is, against all sanity. The primary source of pressure for change in most people comes from the person’s Inner Self, so defense mechanisms tend to resist the positive forces of the Inner Self. MRT, as I recently learned in dealing with a “treatment resistant” individuals, that MRT seeks to decrease recidivism among juvenile and adult criminal offenders by increasing moral reasoning. Its delivery modality requires therapy and homework, predicated on 16 weekly exercises and a total of at least five to six moths. Offenders are inadvertently taught to raise their moral reasoning as articulated in Lawrence Kohlberg’s Stages of Moral Development. This screams MKMMA Alert! This is what the hero’s journey is about!


It takes the combination of very cleverly and aptly introduced change mechanisms to awaken then change resistant, complacent soul and compel it from inside out to wake up and respond to the sound bytes which would compel it to stretch and grow.


This hero’s journey, which we have been engaged in since the beginning, as I ascertain now, is the story of “The Awakening to the Kingdom Calling” from within to respond to the uniquely created destiny the Creator of this vast immense universe has with great love carved out for me. As below, I say out loud, not only that I am grateful, whole, perfect, strong, powerful, loving, harmonious and  happy but also as follows:  


This, by faith, confessing what i want instead of what is holding me back. Sloth is not even being acknowledged, but:  “I am perfect and entire, wanting, meaning missing nothing.” I have been substituting for all this more; i have been utilizing and applying the 7 Laws of the Mind; I have been stirred by Og, propelled to the inner core by “henceforth I know that to court idleness is to steal food, clothing, and warmth from those is love. “


“Bad habits are the unlocked door to failure. Thus the first law I obey, which precedeth all others is I form good habits and become their slave.”


“I will greet this day with Love in my Heart and I will succeed.”


“I will persist until I succeed. I will forget the happenings of the day that is gone, whether they were good or bad, and greet the new sun with confidence that this will be best day of my life.”


“Within me burns a flame which has been passed from generations uncounted and its heat is a constant irritation to my spirit.”  NONE CAN PRODUCE MY CHILD.





With tears now, i am finding the propellant force;

First. I know that I have the ability to achieve the object of my Definite Major Purpose in life, therefore, I demand OF MYSELF PERSISTENT CONTINUOUS ACTION toward its attainment, and I here and now promise to render such action.


Second. I realize the dominating thoughts of my mind are reproducing themselves into physical reality; therefore, I am concentrating my thoughts for twenty minutes daily, upon the task of thinking of the person I intent to become, thereby creating in my mind a clear mental picture of that person.  


Third. I know through the principle of auto-suggestion, any desire that I persistently hold in my mind is seeking expression through some practical means of attaining the object back of it, therefore, I am devoting focus daily to demanding of myself the development of SELF-CONFIDENCE.


Fourth. I have clearly written down a description of my DMP in life and I never stop trying, until I shall have developed sufficient self-confidence for its attainment.


Fifth. I fully realize that no wealth or position can long endure, unless built upon truth and justice, therefore, I will engage in no transaction which does not benefit all whom it affects. I am succeeding by attracting to myself the forces I wish to use, and the cooperation of other people. I am inducing others to serve me, because of my willingness to serve others. I am eliminating hatred, envy, jealousy, selfishness, and cynicism, by developing love for all humanity, because I know that a negative attitude toward others can never bring me success. I am causing others to believe in me, because I am believing in them, and in myself.

I sign my name to this formula, commit it to memory, and repeat it aloud once a day, with full FAITH and CREDIT, that it influences my THOUGHTS AND ACTIONS so that I am becoming a self/God-reliant, and successful person.


Week 20 He Is Spirit; He is Love

Isaiah 40

Who is able to advise the Spirit of the Lord?[c]
    Who knows enough to give him advice or teach him?
14 Has the Lord ever needed anyone’s advice?
    Does he need instruction about what is good?
Did someone teach him what is right
    or show him the path of justice?

15 No, for all the nations of the world
    are but a drop in the bucket.
They are nothing more
    than dust on the scales.
He picks up the whole earth
    as though it were a grain of sand.

To whom can you compare God?
    What image can you find to resemble him?
19 Can he be compared to an idol formed in a mold,
    overlaid with gold, and decorated with silver chains?

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20 Or if people are too poor for that,
    they might at least choose wood that won’t decay
and a skilled craftsman
    to carve an image that won’t fall down!

21 Haven’t you heard? Don’t you understand?
    Are you deaf to the words of God—
the words he gave before the world began?
    Are you so ignorant?
22 God sits above the circle of the earth.
    The people below seem like grasshoppers to him!
He spreads out the heavens like a curtain
    and makes his tent from them.
23 He judges the great people of the world
    and brings them all to nothing.
24 They hardly get started, barely taking root,
    when he blows on them and they wither.
    The wind carries them off like chaff.

25 “To whom will you compare me?
    Who is my equal?” asks the Holy One.


26 Look up into the heavens.
    Who created all the stars?
He brings them out like an army, one after another,
    calling each by its name.
Because of his great power and incomparable strength,
    not a single one is missing.
27 O Jacob, how can you say the Lord does not see your troubles?
    O Israel, how can you say God ignores your rights?
28 Have you never heard?
    Have you never understood?
The Lord is the everlasting God,
    the Creator of all the earth.
He never grows weak or weary.
    No one can measure the depths of his understanding.

29 He gives power to the weak
    and strength to the powerless.
30 Even youths will become weak and tired,
    and young men will fall in exhaustion.
31 But those who trust in the Lord will find new strength.
    They will soar high on wings like eagles.
They will run and not grow weary.
    They will walk and not faint.


Now here

Week 19 i am ergo cogito ergo amo. Science cannot solve the ultimate mystery of nature. And that is because, in the last analysis, we ourselves are a part of the mystery that we are trying to solve. Max Planck

I AM, the documentary movie is certainly inspiring, to say the least. i-am-19

The smiling face of Archbishop Tutu cannot even capture the depth of the love and joy captured in the movie; the contrasting desperation of daily toil, such as the stock exchange of intense competition AGAINST the OTHERS cannot even depict the loneliness of some of our fellow humans are experiencing as they are perceiving OTHERS AS THEIR ENEMIES. i-am-15

Director Tom Shadyac, after a life changing accident, of all by bicycle, travels around the globe and interviews brilliant minds to uncover what life is about. Some of the answers gained were based in Noetics, a branch of metaphysical philosophy concerned with the study of mind as well as intellect and the inter-connectedness of all the living. i-am-10

It is being posited that a breath at one point of the earth affects another; Einstein is quoted as stating that an electron at the beginning of a lengthy distance is changing an electron at the other end, whatever that would constitute.

At first, i have to admit, i saw this being a New-Age propelled endeavor; however, holding my opinion back and just watching, i was taken to the lofty heights of Howard Zinn, confirming that “every day little acts build up into a movement.” (free quote) The Dalai Lama buttresses, that CRITITAL THINKING followed by ACTION is a world changer; that LOVE IS A FORCE.

The OLD BOOK says “Love your Enemies, Bless them that curse you; do good to them that hurt you, do good to them that hate you, and pray for them which despitefully use you, and persecute you; and pray for them which despitefully use you, and persecute you;  That ye may be the children of your Father which is in heaven: for he maketh his sun to rise on the evil and on the good, and sendeth rain on the just and on the unjust. Matt. 5:44-45 


Here it gets personal; what I do, in terms of love, kindness, especially to enemies, is affecting the whole. BAM. We are part of a universe where the seemingly smallest unctions influence the next person and on all. At the same time, each is unique and precious to the CREATOR OF ALL, THE ONE WHO CAME TO LIVE HERE ON THIS PLANET AND DIE FOR ALL.

As the one and only Archbishop Tutu renders, with his heart warming smile,







Week 18: cosmic soup, its forming but ….“As he thinks within himself, so he is” (Proverbs 23:7, NASB).

Below has been simmering in my mind all week and i have been erasing and writing and erasing; i leave it here to brew and form. This blog needs some more time to shape up. Thank you for your patience!!!

1 For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, says the Lord, thoughts of peace and not of evil, to give you a future and a hope. Jer. 29:11 NKJV

“Cogito Ergo Sum” Descartes deducted after a life spent researching both scientifically as well as philosophically. Likewise, for Haanel and a lot of fine, profound thinkers, THOUGHT is really the connector from the spiritual to the material. “14. Thought is the invisible link by which the individual comes into communication with the Universal, the finite with the Infinite, the seen with the Unseen. Thought is the magic by which the human is transformed into a being who thinks and knows and feels and acts. 15. As the proper apparatus has enabled the eye to discover worlds without number millions of miles away, so, with the mountains

All this is very complex and yet simple. May I take this to another level, without rendering disrespect to anyone or any material. The Old Book says that

12 For the word of God is living and powerful, and sharper than any two-edged sword, piercing even to the division of soul and spirit, and of joints and marrow, and is a discerner of the thoughts and intents of the heart. Heb 4:11

Death and life are in the [a]power of the tongue, And those who love it will eat its fruit. Prov. 18:21

Do not conform to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God’s will is—his good, pleasing and perfect will. Rom. 12:2

Our mind includes all of our cognitive capacities:  thoughts, ideas, images, and beliefs. Our feelings are closely intertwined with our thoughts. Other key terms that relate to our minds include: envision, study, remember, reason, and believe.

Our mind is bigger than our brain; it’s more than matter, as it also encompasses experience.  Our minds can interact with visible and invisible reality. When we believe something it’s not just professing something as the “right answer”, but its knowing things as a reality, as actually true.

The heart (will or spirit) works off of the mind; we access our heart and then direct it (make choices) by focusing our thoughts and inclining our feelings (thoughts and feelings are both part of the mind in Dallas Willard’s model). All the aspects of human nature are most readily influenced by what we do with our thoughts.




Science cannot solve the ultimate mystery of nature. And that is because, in the last analysis, we ourselves are a part of the mystery that we are trying to solve.  Max Planck

43 When He had said this, He shouted with a loud voice, “Lazarus, come out!” 44 Out came the man who had been dead, his hands and feet tightly wrapped in burial cloths (linen strips), and with a [burial] cloth turtle-and-giraffewrapped around his face. Jesus said to them, “Unwrap him and release him.” John 11:43-44 (AMP)

Are we the bound or the free? Whereas this may be taken as a philosophical question, the implications can be life or death. Life here and life there. Life abundantly or life lived to arrive safely at death. The brilliant MKMMA, in cooperation with the Holy Ghost, is one of the best experiences of un-tying. When we were exposed to life; to change; to a hero’s calling, we are still finding ourselves fighting ourselves; others and happenstances; we are still struggling with grave clothes around us. It takes a lot of LOVE COMBINATIONS; red circles; blue squares; Franklin Make-overs; DMPs and PPNs; Og’s scrolls; guides; sits and confessions, such as I AM’S AND DO IT NOW’S; face to face with pelf and SELF in the mirror to untie a person; me the person to generate enough movement for progression and empowerment to freedom. to be continued…….




When I am not sure which aspects I may be missing in defining a word, i embark on a journey to such as: Google Scholar (http://scholar.google.com/):; CiteSeerx (); GetCITED (http://www.getcited.org/); ioline International (http://www.bioline.org.br/); to gain a better perspective of what the word connotes. Deontic logic examines PERMISSION via three modals;  R  for required,  P for permitted and F for forbidden. See:
Rq == F (-q).  An act is required  if and only if its denial is forbidden
F(q) == -P(q)  an act is forbidden if it is not permitted
Pq  ==  -Fq  &  -R(-q)   An act is permitted if it is not forbidden and its denial is not required. Not surprisingly, ERIC, the educational research authority, places permission solely into the world of school education; the world where everything is forbidden which has not explicitly allowed; permission has to be sought for most acts, other than breathing, the latter within reason. (LOL) We are conditioned to do what we must and seek permission for both, what we desire or must do. For vacation time, which we earned, we must seek permission to take it. In homeland security, we argue, Rq ==F (-q); we do what is required and permit ourselves to do it as its denial is forbidden, as it could mean our obliteration, ultimately. In MKMMA we are operating on an even higher level; we Pq == -Fq, in other words, we are learning to permit ourselves —–beyond accepting the societal permission to do, as not forbidden and as its denial is not required—–to engage in something that under “normal circumstances” we would need someone to permit us, such as via a sermon or motivational speech. We are officially permitting us to DO IT NOW; to step out of the shadows; to catapult ourselves to RELAX, of all; to think of what we wish to manifest. As Haanel posits, we —permit ourselves— to concentrate on courage, on abundance; on health, and ignoring the opposite thereof. Dignum phrases permission as giving choice. This is what permission ultimately constitutes: choice. We permit ourselves to understand choices we face and to steer into the direction we wish to head. Only if we understand our freedom of choice, are we truly free to permit ourselves. 

My happy Place


These are stairs which are leading to one of my happy places; home. “Yet, within me burns a flame which has been passed from generation uncounted and its heat is a constant irritation to my spirit to become better than I am and I will and am!!!! ” OG

421st EFS 'Black Widows' provide combat airpower

This is Bagram AB and here my heart beat beats higher: 24/7 prayerline for troops in place. Yes there are numbers Servicemembers can call from anywhere in the world; however, in many cases its challenging. This prayerline is affording them a simple 5 to 6 digit code to be transferred in seconds to powerhouses of prayer and praise; further family members can be conferenced in and participate in the communication with their creator.


Next Stop: Entebbe; Juba; Kota, and Kotoga.




Excited women, children and men are welcoming me/us as we are bringing business opportunities that empower them to be independent from those who have taken advantage of them, including abused them. I know that the notion of abuse carries  different meanings in different cultures; notwithstanding, individuals who are treated like or worse than animals have not been allotted the value their carry in the eyes of their creator.


Its being HOME, doing what I am created to do, not showing off good works; as children, we do what moves us and what directs us via the loving care of our parents. As adults, we make a lot of detours and decisions but ultimately are not happy as long as we have not found this inner knowing that we are where we belong and endeavoring what propels us. My happy place is the place where all, family, friends and strangers can meet and rest and be who they are, at their best. A pilot will not feel fulfilled if they are not flying from time to time; air and sky is calling them. A social worker/pastor/therapist  will not be in their element when not helping others in some fashion. A swimmer wants to spend time with the water and fish. My real place is to inspire others to use their talents; not as a coach would but as a fellow human connecting them with other fellow humans to glorify HIM who smiles on all creatures and loves them so uniquely as each is the most precious pearl to HIM. As I was conceived in love and brought forth with a purpose, so are billions of others. As I am “an architect of greatness, so are Billions and their vision lies within their souls;” we all peer beyond our veils and mists of doubt and pierce the walls of unborn time.” (Haanel) “What we visualize already exits in the spiritual world!”

I always keep my promises!